My bad

This morning I forgot to return a camera to the library - it was a camera that another teacher needed, too. It's totally my bad, and I find myself feeling very sheepish about the whole thing. On the other hand, when the teacher in question quite rightly expressed their displeasure, they got a bit ranty. To the point where they didn't actually hear the questions I was asking until I'd repeated them at least twice. Words such as "completely unprofessional" and "I'd never do that to another teacher" were used. After I had acknowledged that it was entirely my fault. There is some value in venting one's feelings. It can clear the air, and allow one to move on with one's day. There is great value in knowing when you've really screwed up someone's day, and need to let them vent. There is, however, also some value in treating people who are about to do you a favour with courtesy, even when they've messed up your day. I'm supposed to be teaching the class of the teacher I screwed over this week, as a favour. I now have quite mixed feelings about the situation. I clearly did something bad, and fully deserved a telling off. I think the language used was a little stronger than I'd be comfortable with, but it certainly wasn't offensive. The problem is, I don't want to go out of my way to teach extra classes - it was only ever going to be a favour. And now I have a number of competing factors - guilt, indignance, laziness - swishifying my brain, tempting me with scenarios that are less work for me, but are not good for collegial relationships. The fact that the teacher in question hadn't booked any cameras as of a week ago, and didn't do so until I suggested that it might be a good idea for a filming project, also makes me wonder what my overall contribution to the project will be - how much of a hindrance as opposed to a boon I'll end up being. I will teach the class. I will return borrowed items on time. I will never offer my help to other departments again. That should pretty much cover it ;)